"We're like snow globes. We spend all of our time, energy, words, and money creating a flurry, trying not to know, making sure the snow doesn't settle so we never have to face the fiery truth inside us - solid and unmoving. The relationship is over. The wine is winning. The pills aren't for back pain anymore. He's never coming back. That book won't write itself. The move is the only way. Quitting this job will save my life. It is abuse. You never grieved him. It's been six months since we made love. Spending a lifetime hating her is no life at all. We keep ourselves shaken up because there … [Read more...] about Farewell, Friends
Well, it’s been awhile, guys. And it’s not that there’s not plenty going on both in my life and with fabulous Cleveland folks to talk about. But I’m just feeling overwhelmed at the moment.
I’m trying to wrap my head around everything going on with my mom. I’m trying to knock it out of the park at a new(ish) job that I love. I’m trying to be the best mom and daughter and girlfriend and friend I can to, frankly, the most amazing crew of people anyone could ask for in their life.
None of this is meant to be complaining. I offer it by way of explanation. When I changed the … [Read more...] about Pressing Pause
Birthdays have always been a point of reflection for me. A chance to examine where I’ve been and where I’m going.
Last year, on my actual birthday, I jumped off a metaphorical cliff and started a journey to an entirely new life. On my last day of 38, I can reflect on the sometimes hard-to-believe changes that have happened in the last year; the strength in myself and trust in others I’ve found; the amazing things that can happen when you abandon fear and crack open your heart to being authentically yourself.
More so, though, I find myself looking to the future. There … [Read more...] about Looking Back, Looking Forward
Jeffrey starts first grade today! Where on earth did the time go? This year, the beginning of the school year looks and feels different for all of us. Matthew and I decided to send Jeffrey for in-person learning after seeing his school's plan for re-entry. But even though I am confident in the school's plan and in Jeffrey's ability to comply with the new rules and regulations, there is apprehension. Will Jeffrey stay healthy? What will the experience be like, with limited out-of-classroom activities? How long will in-person learning even last? For some people, the school year is starting … [Read more...] about Back to School
So, this weekend was a big one in my world...my two Jeff(rey)s met each other! I've been basically living a dual life of being a mom half the week and a girlfriend on the days when I don't have Jeffrey. And while the meeting was not at all due to my exhaustion with that dual life, it sure is nice to start to bring these two anchors of my worlds together. We met up at Topgolf, which is somewhere Jeffrey has been asking to go since his golf lessons with the First Tee of Cleveland. Much like any first date, it's good to have an activity to keep everyone entertained. Jeffrey knew that Jeff … [Read more...] about The Jeff(rey)s
This weekend, we found ourselves collectively shocked and saddened by the death of Chadwick Boseman at age 43 from colon cancer. It's not just his age, but the fact that he portrayed characters with such life and vitality, even when he himself was sick. His roles were iconic, especially for the black community. His loss will have a tremendous impact. And I can't help but think that in his death, there is a lesson as well. Colon cancer is one of the deadliest cancers and often goes undetected until the later stages. My grandmother died of colon cancer at the age of 55, when I was 8 months … [Read more...] about Colon Cancer